life

it has to be undoubtedly that things are not the way they were before but as time goes by we learn to do the things we do we let the day pass us by and there we are just standing as if it didn't but it did just like that over and over things happen but do we know what are we even thinking why did we let it pass us by why did it let it pass me by no no no we try and try we think and think we go on and we die inside out round and round sideways up and down we never let go but do we maybe we don't we never will we hold on until there's nothing left to hold on to but we still hold on anyway but what does it mean holding on to something that's not there but there is something there something that people may not see but it's there invisible to all eyes we see it and no one else does are they dumb stupid can't they not see what i see can they not hear what i hear dumb and deaf that's what they are insulent fools i tell myself crawling on the floor and grapple for breath i'm dying inside or outside up or down sideways wondering what my next word will be trying to thinking but maybe i should not think and just write just do just say what i think feel feelings does anyone care does anyone know why should they know why should they feel it's best if no one knew so that no one would care or have to care coz it's not important but it is important to me and only me only i know what's go on in this head of mine filled with so many things and words and thoughts and deeds i just want to burst into a million pieces and fill up the holes in the sky with myself so that the night will have more lights than just one big moon to brighten the dark but i'm in the dark and i can't get out right now i feel like one big blur that's just wizzing on by by by by by by by by by wizz wizz wizz wizz wizz wizz wizz wizz wizz hello can you hear me can you see me can you feel me can you anything what is anything or anyone to anyone what are these thoughts inside my head these feelings that i feel if one could just write on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on what would you write what would you feel what would you say say anything feel anything do anything anything you like you hate you feel we all feel we feel like saying or not saying doing or not doing feeling or not feeling with no punctuations with no stops or pauses this is how we go on in life we need to take a back seat and sit down and relax and pause.