the hope of pain

so chop me up into little pieces and call me George.
put my head in an oven and turn on the sparks.
push me off a rising cliff.
falling into the deepest pit of despair.

suicide remarks and resounds.
all around me.
i'm surrounded and trapped.
it's closing in.

i'm going to fight.
won't let it hit me,
kill me, destroy -
me.

suicide?
what's that?
death, life.
me, commit suicide?

how?
kill myself?
no.
just my pain.

Pain, commit suicide.
cast yourself,
in a sea of forgetfullness.
forever.

but without pain,
i'd not know how to rejoice.
it is in this,
i learn to deal with pain.

conjure me a potion.
wake me from my sleep.
wake me up,
when september ends.